They told us to MULTIPLY and replenish...

My babies. What a beautiful moment when the doctor said "and here's your other baby..." I will admit we had a feeling, I thought at the time maybe just a hope, that there were two. Stephens mom called it from the beginning. So when the ultrasound came up and I saw one baby, I was so happy! But a tiny bit sad it was just one. So when we got to see the other baby, I felt so thankful. It felt right. It felt like they should both be there. We streamed tears of the purest joy trying to listen to the doc rattle off stats while never taking our eyes off those two sweet wiggly little bodies. I could have watched them all day! Now that I've had time to digest and really think about what it will mean to have two babies at the same time, it hits me differently every day. Like Sunday I watched mothers chase toddlers, and take out a crying baby. And I thought about how in the world I will manage two by myself when Stephen is at the station! I ran several options in my head from staying home (obviously not an option) to having my mom come help me. Then I just realized that I will be fine. I'm going to figure it out. The lord wouldn't give me these sweet children in a package deal if he thought I couldn't handle it. I may look white trash sometimes and they won't always behave when I need them to but I will do the best I can and at the end of the day I have faith it will be enough. I am so blessed to have such great examples of mothers, especially mothers of multiples, right in our family. This will make the 5th set of multiple births for Stephens side. I know I know, crazy. We figured out its in my mother in laws cookies. Saturday she was making cookies and she cracked an egg that had a double yoke!!! Hahaha. I know that I will be well prepared! Today I am 12 and a half weeks. It feels like such a milestone! I'm happy to report the nausea has subsided for the most part, I can put my ginger away. But it left a hole that was quickly filled by migraine headaches. Uhg! Tylonol doesn't touch it. I have been seeing the chiropractor 3 times a week and that seems to help most. And sleeping from 8p-8a. I'm so glad these twins are first. Also I am so lucky to be able to quit my job soon and stay home. 2 more weeks to be exact! I knew the chemicals of a nail salon weren't great but doctors orders just make it so much more official. It makes me feel better about leaving knowing that its whats best for the 3 of us. Stephen is so supportive. I love when he comes home from the station, after being away from us for 2 days, and he tells me all the things he thought about. Like what he might say when he goes to bless the babies or what he thinks the nursery should look like or how they came to choose us for their family or how we should get them the "Thing 1 and Thing 2" costumes since they will most likely come around Halloween. He is such a sweet dad already. Last night my mom took me out for my first baby shopping. I was so overwhelmed. That doesn't even describe it. There are far too many options! I was happy to learn that most stores give a twin discount! If you buy two of the same thing the second item is 25% off. Every little bit helps:) I'm looking forward to spending lots of time in thrift stores like kid to kid, kids again, other mothers... I think there are 3 or 4 close by that have some great stuff. One great piece of advice I got was not to rush out and buy two of everything. Let them learn to share and figure out what they like. Some twins have to be touching when they sleep, others do better apart. Some babies like bouncers some like swings...it all just depends. I'm excited to figure it all out. Each kid comes with and different set of instructions I think and its mom and dads job to master the hand book! I know that I have no idea what I'm in for but I think thats a blessing in some ways. Save the stress for when they get here and I'm figuring it out rather than worry that I wont figure it out. I know I will. I'm grateful to have such an amazing guy by my side! And such supportive mothers and family members close by. I trust my divinely inspired and created body to be able to carry these babies and raise them. I trust I will be blessed with mothers intuition and most importantly I trust that I am doing exactly what I should be doing exactly when I'm supposed to do it. I'm so lucky to be where I am today and I'm so grateful for this incredibly spiritual, emotional and physically exhausting experience. Ready or not, here we go! Find Joy in the Journey right? Oh and keep calm and carry on.