In the end, you really start thinking about the beginning. I remember after the twins were born thinking I wanted to have 8 more of these sweet little bundles! Then the honeymoon phase wore off and toddlerhood set in and I rethought that plan haha. They were SUCH good babies and SUCH naughty toddlers! And have brought our lives so much joy and fulfillment.
Going into motherhood I was clueless and sorta naive... which I think you almost have to be. It will be so different with my own! My kids will never act like that! I would never do this/that/the other! My baby will be an angel! Haha I think you almost have to think that way... honestly if we knew EXACTLY what we were in for I think a lot less people would take on parenthood. It is HARD and certainly not for the faint of heart. I wouldn't change it for the world. It forces you to grow in ways you otherwise couldn't. But going into it this time.... I KNOW. I'm familiar with the birth and recovery process, the sleepless nights, the woes of breast feeding, the poopy diapers, the crying, the spit up, never ending laundry and trying to keep up with life! This time around with two kids! But I'm also very familiar with how my heart grows 10 sizes, the spirit a newborn brings into your home, how sweet it is to see their face for the first time and how you never want to let go or put them down because its like being in the presence of the most pure and holy thing you have ever experienced, how my love for my husband grows beyond comprehension watching him hold, care for and love on my baby, how you cry all the time - happy tears because you dont even know how you got so lucky to be blessed with such perfection. Adding this time - seeing my kids become big brother and big sister. I am very anxious to see them step into that role! I know they are going to be amazing. We already love her so much. I have a feeling we are going to wonder how we ever lived without her.
The number one question I get after people ask "are you sure its not twins again?" is "So is it so much easier only being pregnant with one baby?"
And I get where they are coming from but honestly NO... yeah nope not much different. I measured 55+ inches around when I delivered the twins at 37 weeks 2 days and right now I'm measuring about 43-44. Pregnancy is pregnancy, it sucks. And I know other people have it a lot worse than I do but I have never been more sick in my life than during this pregnancy! Morning sickness was more intense last time, I threw up daily. This time I just felt carsick but it was CONSTANT and lasted longer. I had really bad migraines last time, they returned this time but weren't as bad. But I did get the worst cold/sore throat Ive had in a really long time ON TOP of the nausea and that was awful. I got the worst flu of my life and had to spend the night in the hospital receiving 3 bags of fluids because I was so dehydrated. And now for the last few weeks I have contracted MRSA (a staff infection) in my sinus and my immune system is suppressed so my body doesn't even know how to fight it off so I'm just extremely tired and that achy feeling like you are getting a cold. Stephen also took on 2 of the biggest roof jobs he has ever done and had the busiest month. On top of packing up an entire house, moving a playlet & shed lifting them above my head over fences, moving and unpacking boxes and getting settled in a new house... while 8 months pregnant... and sick... it just has been the craziest month ever. I try not to complain but... it really was terrible and I'm glad its over haha. Things have gotten better now that moving is over and I started an antibiotic. I'm huge and uncomfortable, but I can still move. I still go to the gym 3-4x a week. Where last time I was SO TERRIFIED of being put on bed rest that I almost put myself on bed rest. I took 3 naps a day and just sort of sat around waiting. It was much easier last time actually because I didn't have any other responsibilities! I haven't swollen like I did last time. I am still wearing my wedding ring where last time I couldn't wear it past like 24 weeks! My face was so swollen I'm pretty sure I retained DOUBLE the water. I am a little swollen especially on the days its over 100 degrees outside but overall, I can't complain. I'm hang in in there. But just this weekend I have let myself be 37 weeks pregnant. I stayed inside to avoid the heat and took a nap both days Stephen was home, and I have plopped myself on the couch to sit and catch up on blogging and organizing photos on my computer. 3 more weeks to hunker down and really get prepared for this baby! Its almost like preparing for a natural disaster, making sure the pantry & freezer are stocked, making sure all the auto ships are set up and all the baby bows and clothes and necessities have been purchased! Her nursery is almost ready. My hospital bag is almost ready. I dont know if I will ever really feel ready but ready or not she will be here soon! And the rest will just work itself out.
The number one question I get after people ask "are you sure its not twins again?" is "So is it so much easier only being pregnant with one baby?"
And I get where they are coming from but honestly NO... yeah nope not much different. I measured 55+ inches around when I delivered the twins at 37 weeks 2 days and right now I'm measuring about 43-44. Pregnancy is pregnancy, it sucks. And I know other people have it a lot worse than I do but I have never been more sick in my life than during this pregnancy! Morning sickness was more intense last time, I threw up daily. This time I just felt carsick but it was CONSTANT and lasted longer. I had really bad migraines last time, they returned this time but weren't as bad. But I did get the worst cold/sore throat Ive had in a really long time ON TOP of the nausea and that was awful. I got the worst flu of my life and had to spend the night in the hospital receiving 3 bags of fluids because I was so dehydrated. And now for the last few weeks I have contracted MRSA (a staff infection) in my sinus and my immune system is suppressed so my body doesn't even know how to fight it off so I'm just extremely tired and that achy feeling like you are getting a cold. Stephen also took on 2 of the biggest roof jobs he has ever done and had the busiest month. On top of packing up an entire house, moving a playlet & shed lifting them above my head over fences, moving and unpacking boxes and getting settled in a new house... while 8 months pregnant... and sick... it just has been the craziest month ever. I try not to complain but... it really was terrible and I'm glad its over haha. Things have gotten better now that moving is over and I started an antibiotic. I'm huge and uncomfortable, but I can still move. I still go to the gym 3-4x a week. Where last time I was SO TERRIFIED of being put on bed rest that I almost put myself on bed rest. I took 3 naps a day and just sort of sat around waiting. It was much easier last time actually because I didn't have any other responsibilities! I haven't swollen like I did last time. I am still wearing my wedding ring where last time I couldn't wear it past like 24 weeks! My face was so swollen I'm pretty sure I retained DOUBLE the water. I am a little swollen especially on the days its over 100 degrees outside but overall, I can't complain. I'm hang in in there. But just this weekend I have let myself be 37 weeks pregnant. I stayed inside to avoid the heat and took a nap both days Stephen was home, and I have plopped myself on the couch to sit and catch up on blogging and organizing photos on my computer. 3 more weeks to hunker down and really get prepared for this baby! Its almost like preparing for a natural disaster, making sure the pantry & freezer are stocked, making sure all the auto ships are set up and all the baby bows and clothes and necessities have been purchased! Her nursery is almost ready. My hospital bag is almost ready. I dont know if I will ever really feel ready but ready or not she will be here soon! And the rest will just work itself out.
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